Happy Thanksgiving
Love,
Jessica
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Mac & Cheese
Dear Grama,
Last night I made mac and cheese, the kind from your recipe. I thought about you the whole time. I like to think that things like recipes tie each generation together. It links me to you in a way.
Tom and I have started trying to have a baby, not real seriously but enough that I've gone to the DR and they've put me on medication. I want a girl. Its another link to you. I know I will cry if I ever get pregnant though, just bc I won't be able to go through it with you.
Today I found out that Jekka might have cancer. It seems like one thing after another with her. And to think that before her text, I was wondering if it was possible for so much to go so right in our lives, if we were breaking some cosmic law by being so happy. Apparently we are. Though I wonder if the fact I'm writing again signifies some hidden unrest. I only write when I'm unhappy.
Tom has a job interview and tour tomorrow with a plant foreman. If the foreman likes him, they will call him back for the next step in hiring. We are hoping he gets it. If he is hired, we will be saving over $30 a week in gas costs plus getting a raise. If all goes well, we will pay off his car in the spring and be well on the way out of debt (except for our mortgage).
I called Grandpa the other day, he's doing ok but I'm worried about him. He misses you so much. We all do. Its hard with Janessa being gone too. Janessa made me cry yesterday because she said she missed me so much.
Well I should probably get back to work,
Love you so much,
Jessica
Monday, November 8, 2010
Reality
Dear Grama,
Last night I had a full blown melt down on Tom. I'll spare you the details, but let it suffice to say that I was totally out of control. This morning all I could think of was how things seem to have spun out of control since you've been gone. I rely on you so much for advice and now I feel lost. I can't do this wife thing without your guidance. I was relying on the fact you'd be around longer. How did you last 59 yrs in your marriage?
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